Revenge

Ketika pandangan terus terpaku pada satu titik, lama kelamaan titik itu menjadi semakin kabur. Mata tak lagi bisa membedakan apakah yang dilihat saat ini adalah sesuatu yang asli atau sekedar bayangan. Tidak mampu mengganti fokus karena memang terus menginginkannya atau kemudian hanya menjadi sekesar obsesi? Kesadaran selalu datang terlambat, kata orang-orang, tapi lebih baik daripada tidak datang sama sekali.

Ketika titik itu menjadi berkabut, cepat saja alihkan mata, pandang ke arah lain. Jika memang titik itu meminta untuk diperjuangkan, dan mungkin itu karena kehendak terdalam, apapun yang terjadi semua hal akan mengarah kembali kepada fokus yang sama. Tetapi setelah memberikan mata sebuah pandangan yang lain dan kemudian menyadari bahwa citra yang terbentuk selama ini ternyata sudah berubah menjadi sekedar kenangan bukan lagi bentuk fisik yang sebenarnya, mungkin saat itulah diri harus terus melangkah.

Take a deep breath and looking for another option must be the best revenge for something's that already have had enough to fight. 

When you lost urself

When you feel like you're out of nowhere, what will you do? For me, I will stop and cry out loud. But, it's never enough, I'll never find the way out if I just stand in the same place, begging for help. That's the unique thing for being mature, you're pushed to face anything alone, Yap! there're still family and friends out there,but they have their own and you must do your own instead of mourning in the dark. Because everything   bad now, never means to be bad for the whole time besides you supposed to allow it. 

Sometimes, I'm reading myself with one person's life. I said if I were her (it used to be her,not him by the way) maybe I'm happier right now. But, when I keep asking, I found something odd in there, how come if I am truly her and I look at another's life then I still dreaming to be someone different than me at that time. So, it's not about who has the better life instead of taking my life in sincere. It becomes a must to finding our own happiness, because we can make other people happy when we're happy. Life never promise anything besides life itself. It depends on us to live it well or to ruin it.